I'm so grateful to have kept good journals. Most surprising to me? I had NOT already posted this in my blog! Really? So, here you go. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did!
Life is full of longing. I’ve heard so many people say this in different ways. Leaning to live in the moment, I think, is much more than just eschewing consequences. We want things to happen quickly. We don’t want some things to happen at all. If we have to endure those things, we can’t just wait until they are “over.” I don’t think that it’s ever really over. I think that no matter what is happening in life, we could be wishing that there was some magic pill that could instantly transport us to an easier place, where life will fall into it’s “correct” rhythm and THEN we would be happy. If we could just get such and such accomplished, we would be satisfied. Whether we realize it or not, most of us quickly pass by almost without acknowledging those things when they DO happen. We find some other reason not to be happy. That is the longing I’m talking about.
I hope that I am able to make the very most out of those threshold moments in my life as the years ahead pass by. I want to be happy now, and not wait until some big event comes along. I think that, in not putting off my happiness, I will be able to truly savor and cherish the good things to come. I don’t want to rush through anything just to get to the next thing. I know that there are going to be so many challenges. I want to take each day with courage and live deliberately. I think it’s really the only way to live. I think that living any other way isn’t really living, it's actually putting off living your life until some future time which you will never allow to come. I don’t want that. I want to be alive, now. I want to live my life with purpose and do things for good reasons. I want to be able to look back and say, “I learned this.” or “I’m different now because. . .” and build each day on the choices of yesterday, and do it happily.
3 comments:
I like that. I was in the middle of a BIG moment of my life back in March of 2008, but I could kick myself for not allowing myself to enjoy a part of it because it just wasn't going the way "I" had planned it. I remember praying really really hard for something to be different, so that everything would be right according to "My" plan, and having a very firm answer that things wouldn't change but that it would work out fine and I was still just as good a person and a Mom without that part of my plan. Well I wasted 2 weeks trying to convince God that I hadn't heard him and when I finally came around and realized what I had done, it was amazing to me just how wonderful my life was- even without it going according to "My" plan. I will have to remember that this summer too. (though I still hope the Lord goes along with me this time, If he doesn't I hope I enjoy his version of the ride rather then longing for him to fix it so that it will be according to my will.) Hmmm, not sure if I make any sense at all.
It was great reading your thoughts!! all the best!!
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